....O.k so they're not all "selca" ...........XD

OH window , the typical place where it all occurs!

The typical...."POUT"! Or in my case, the fishy lips!

Just a few for my anniversary celebration! Might I just add, MyunKa is delish! You also see, my new friend Pete the Pig!

Do you remember, about a year ago you said to me "You're only with the White guy to kill time, once you find the right Chinese guy, you're ganna ditch him inet."
Ha, sorry to dissapoint but he's since been my longest relationship. I don't have any plans on ditching him and I've seen my fair share of decent Chinese guys.

Thanks Cuz, I feel the love........

It's not nice having these private conversations foolishly broadcasted on the net.

I might sound defensive or a bully or whatever but at the end of the day, everyone is a victim of bitchiness at one point of out life, do we sulk over it and tell the whole world so we get a bit of sympathy?

"OMG, how did it happen, how did glass smash in your eyes n wer did it happen, does your face look like halloween? are you ok?"

"As a cousin i cant believe you would say something like that"

....I am generally sorry it it came across as "faul humour", but if anyone can read, I do generally care. If I didn't I probably would have said something along the lines of .....

"LOL....your face must look like halloween"

I am not trying to defend myself but rather trying to make a point that to me, it feels like SO MUCH DRAMA, has been caused because people take the worst out of life. Stop looking at the negative parts of life and brush it off. No one wishes anyone to look like halloween....and jokes about halloween are always made. If I cried over everytime my sisters boyfriend said jokes like that to me....I could probably fill the river nile.

There's just one thing I REALLY HATE:

broadcasting family things online which have no benifit to anyone.

"You always photoshop your pictures"
Sorry, if I had photoshop on my laptop, be my guest and tell me where it is.

"Thanks for the love cuz"
Erm....awkward.

"ur wearing make up to sleep!"
Cos we havn't had enough sleep overs for you to see that no, I dont not wear make up to sleep.

This is what bully's do.

1. A person who uses strength or power to harm or intimidate those who are weaker.

 I do absolutely nothing and get alot of these comments on facebook, from "CUZ's", "friends" and who ever. Sometimes it feels like someone is kicking me down to make themselves seem better.

Let me tell you one thing. YOU LOOK AS STUPID AS I DO.
This is not what family do, they sure as hell don't slate each other of on facebook or social network sites, they arn't suppose to argue in public.
Family should be loving and forgiving and caring.

There's not much I can say but sorry for upsetting you. But I just want to remind you, you are equally capable of upsetting other people, and you do.

So not ready for life.....

I just love how people think life is a doss...
If you've been through a degree...There's something you shouldn't forget; You're investing grands into your future so instead of me spending my time irrelevantly....how about I make it a decent degree and make the most of it. I'm not aiming for a 2:1....I'm aiming for a First class....I'm not doing a subject I love, I'm doing one that I like but instead it's just really hard. I'm not taking the easy way out....I'm in and out of pools of maths and stats... If you know me, It's not really how my mind works.

Making the most of University I've decided to do a year in industry and I don't know how many jobs you've applied for, but a word of advice, it's LONG. 50 applications away and I could still be jobless.
I'm lucky, I've spent alot of time job hunting and after 2 months, I finally have a part time Christmas temp job, now the time free'd from job hunting there will be spent on an industrial placement hunt.
Why quit my current job? I want something different on my CV, I want a convinient route to work, not something stressful and dangerous.

Why do an industrial placement when I can just do a graduate job? Because it's competitve and uncertain, if I get it, I have set myself up for the time when I have graduated.

If i'm paying for this all...I'm bloody well making the most of it and all these things I stress over may all be irrelevant but atleast I can say I tried.
I won't spend revision time sleeping or gaming or whatever.

4 Assesments and 1 Presentation on this final month till the end of term 1. Within 2 Weeks time I will have 2 Christmas jobs running.

I signed up for it so i'm ganna do it, I never said I won't...

But seriously, the last thing I need is people telling me how I should spend my time and that If I have so much going on then don't relax. OH k....I'm sorry but everyone needs time for their brain to breath and a weekend half relaxing and still half studying .... to me qualifies.That's why a working week is 5 days.

Your life and My life, Your thoughts and my thoughts...it's like mixing oil and water, but that's fine.
I wont try to change your life or your thoughts.

SO DONT TRY TO CHANGE MINE.

I'm fucking ready for everything I signed up for. 

I'm not ready for people's shit and judgements on my life.

I'm ganna be stressed and there's ganna be pressure and all I can say is bring it.
However stress from people who fail to understand and say bitchy stupid things just ....

No words to explain.

I just wanna say fuck off and I will be a success one day.